It’s interesting, no, awe-inspiring, the way God leads us to something He wants us to see. When I read today’s devotion, I was led back to a comment someone had made on one of my blog posts back in April. Then I was led to the blog post itself and realized that between then and now, I have come full circle. I have been braver than I knew all along.
So, today, I thought I would talk about what I found and how I could read the words now without cringing and truly believe them. First, the comment. My good friend Janet said this back in April. “You might not feel brave on the inside, but you are one of the bravest, most open, genuine, and real people I know.” I did read it back then, but I could barely read it if that makes sense. I was cringing at the words and not really believing them because I was going through such a dark time. I don’t know what made me save the comment. Maybe I thought I would be able to read it one day without cringing, or maybe I just forgot it was there, but I believe it was God-ordained. He knew I would read it again on July 6, 2018 and realize what He already knew about my character–that He had made me a particular way for a particular purpose and that I didn’t need to copy anyone else as I sought to glorify Him. I thought that was a brave realization to have.
Then, I went to the blog post itself. The title of it is “Saying Yes,” and while I’m not going to repeat all of it, I read it and realized I’ve already done what I talked about in the post. I’ve done it! I entered my story in the writing contest. I didn’t win anything, but my story was posted on their site for several weeks, and more people got to read my writing. That’s a win in my book! It’s given me encouragement to try again.
I have also gone to Honduras with a missions team from my church and come back. When I first said yes to God’s prompting, I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. I wasn’t sure how the trip would turn out. But, I did it! God changed me and made me a stronger person because of it. He used it to help me come out of the wilderness.
There was one thing in this post though that I haven’t been able to do, and I would like to ask for your prayers as I attempt to do it in the next few days. Pray for me to have the courage to confront, the courage to be honest, and the courage to receive honesty. Managing conflict has never been a strong suit of mine. I have a tendency to bury it. But, it needs to be unburied. Please pray I will have the courage to do so and also pray that if the people involved don’t want me around after the words have been said, I will have the courage to walk away. Thank you for your prayers! May we all have courage as we seek to have a heart like His!
Praying God’s blessings on you all today!