Different

This is it! Today is the very last day I will be blogging through the devotional 100 Days to Brave. I’m on the 100th devotion. It’s also my 24th wedding anniversary. Two amazing things, to be sure. I’m in a different place now than I was at the beginning of February, and I think going through these words and Scripture verses about bravery has changed my heart. No, I’m not perfect. Far from it. But, I am different.

I can believe what today’s Scripture verse says about me whereas I know I wouldn’t have believed it in February. From Zephaniah 3:17, “The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke, but will rejoice over you with singing.” He takes “great delight” in me, the person that I am, not the Christian mold I’ve been trying to fit in to. The person who doesn’t have as much money as the rest of her church family. The person who feels deeply. The person who is a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. The person who is not noticed. The person who is nerdy and techy. The person who is different from the norm, even the Christian norm. The person who fails more than she succeeds, but the person who loves Jesus with all her heart and wants to have opportunities to serve Him.

God takes delight in that person, me. It’s the real reason I started to blog through this devotional. I wanted to learn to be brave with my faith, brave with my writing, and brave with my life, and I think I have. I liked what the author had to say because I think it reflects what has happened to me. “Making brave choices in your life is going to change the world. At the least, it will change your world.” (100 Days to Brave, Annie F. Downs) Doing what I’ve done has proven to me that I can write every day and that I can express the words God wants me to say.

There is one other thing I want to point out with today’s post, and it has to do with the title. I’ve already said I think God has changed me during this time of blogging. He wants all of us to be different though when we accept Jesus as Savior. But, I think some of us think differences shouldn’t matter when we share a common faith. Yes, we all believe the same, but we are still different people, and we have different gifts to bring to the table. God wants us to accept each other and embrace our differences. That’s a hard thing, I know. And we don’t do a good job of reflecting that in this fallen world. This is why I so appreciated the words of the song I want to share with you, and this is how I want to complete the next steps of my bravery journey.

“Different” by Micah Tyler

I don’t wanna hear anymore, teach me to listen
I don’t wanna see anymore, give me a vision
That you could move this heart, to be set apart
I don’t need to recognize, the man in the mirror
And I don’t wanna trade Your plan, for something familiar
I can’t waste a day, I can’t stay the same

I wanna be different
I wanna be changed
‘Til all of me is gone
And all that remains
Is a fire so bright
The whole world can see
That there’s something different
So come and be different
In me

And I don’t wanna spend my life, stuck in a pattern
And I don’t wanna gain this world but lose what matters
And so I’m giving up, everything because

I wanna be different
I wanna be changed
‘Til all of me is gone
And all that remains
Is a fire so bright
The whole world can see
That there’s something different
So come and be different; oh-oh

I know, that I am far, from perfect
But through You, the cross still says, I’m worth it
So take this beating in my heart and
Come and finish what You started
When they see me, let them see You
‘Cause I just wanna be different, ye-ey

I wanna be different
I wanna be changed
‘Til all of me is gone
And all that remains
Oh is a fire so bright
The whole world can see
That there’s something different
So come and be different
I just wanna be different
So could You be different
In me

source: https://www.lyricsondemand.com/m/micahtylerlyrics/differentlyrics.html

 

Thanks to all who’ve read at least one of these posts. I would like your prayers as I speak at my church this Wednesday night and talk about some of my bravery journey. I plan to take a break from this blog for a few days as I decide what my next steps will be.

God bless you all!