It’s finally come to the point where I’ve looked at the devotion from 100 Days to Brave, and I’ve not been sure I could pull even a small thread from it to write about. Saying yes has been scary for me of late. I have a hard time walking into somewhere by myself and feeling like no one wants me there–that I’m not pretty enough, skinny enough, smart enough, or just enough to be with that particular group. I feel like I have nothing to contribute especially to a group of women who are all friends with me being the outsider.
But, this is when the author says it’s good to say yes. “Even when it’s scary or costly or unknown.” (100 Days to Brave, Annie F. Downs) There are more things I can add to this though that make me wonder. Do I say yes to doing something when I disagree with how it’s been handled in the past, and I haven’t had the courage to confront? Do I say yes when I’ve had the courage to confront and nothing’s changed? And what about that courage to confront? Confronting in a Christian way is something I haven’t figured out how to do yet, so, most of the time, when I disagree with something, I’ll keep my mouth shut and internalize all of my bad feelings. I know that’s not good for me either, but what do I do? I don’t know how Jesus wants me to handle it.
Sorry about that. I went off-topic. 🙂 Back to the subject of saying yes. Every yes I’ve said lately has been scary. God has been leading me to some places that are unfamiliar, and unfamiliar equals scary in my book. I’ve submitted one story to a contest and will be submitting another one shortly. I’ve agreed to go on a missions trip this summer. I know I’m in God’s will for both of these things, and I know I’m in the palm of His hand, but I’m still scared.
I also know God gives comfort in the midst of fear, and I think that might be the point of what the author has to say about saying yes in today’s devotion. “Say yes to the situations that stretch you and scare you and ask you to be a better you than you think you can be.” (100 Days to Brave, Annie F. Downs) God wants us to be better people so I’m pretty sure that’s why these fear-inspiring situations keep coming up. And if we’re believers, shouldn’t we want what God wants for us?
It’s hard for me to ask that question because the answer is obvious and because there are a lot of times I can’t or don’t want to say yes. It makes me feel ashamed. Fear does a number on us all. I will talk more about God giving us grace in these situations in the next post, but, for now, I believe God gives us the courage and the bravery to say yes to the things He wants us to do if we keep our minds and hearts continually seeking after Him. Praying for us to have courage and bravery as we seek our Lord and Savior and praying we can receive His grace when we can’t reach through our fear!
May God bless you all today!