Inspiration

I read a question earlier about what inspires me to write and thought I would write a short piece detailing my reasons. First, let me state the reasons that were written in the prompt. Is my writing a desire to create lyrical prose, to escape this world, or to explore my inner world? I think a combination of the last two reasons is what inspires me to write. My world is so normal, and I feel insignificant a lot of the time like I’m not important to people. I want to write about characters who are important, who save the day and the planet. They start off insignificant and then become heroes to those around them. I want them to be recognized as valuable and important people who make sure that all around them who are also insignificant are recognized as valuable and important. That recognition, of course, does not happen in our society, or even in the Christian church, so that’s one of the main reasons I want to escape this world through my writing and write about a better world.

I believe exploring my inner world is a natural extension of the first reason so I’m throwing that out there as well. I want the world to be better so I make-up worlds which then need to come out of my head and be written down on paper so I won’t lose the world or the thoughts leading to it. I’m at my happiest when I’m writing about my inner world and describing the ways it can be better than the world I’m currently living in.

I also feel like writing is a big way for me to redeem my past. That is what brings me back to my book and other things I’m writing after a long time away. I’ve used my circumstances to block my writing time for way too long, and this is what I’m hoping to change in 2020. I’m capable of achieving my goals even with four people and a dog in the house, and it’s about time I proved it.

Another part of the prompt said I should write about the last time inspiration hit and how it came about. It was last fall when I noticed the listing for a short story contest. It said to write a story about why the United States hadn’t been back to the moon in fifty years. Any reason, any scenario. But, history had to stay the same. A light dawned. I could fit my character and her desire to be a pilot/astronaut right into it since women were still being discriminated against in the late ’60s and early ’70s. A story started forming in my head. I was able to write over 27,000 words of it during NaNoWriMo. Where I fell down though was in the planning and execution of it. I didn’t flesh out the outline enough which is why the words stopped. I’ve been able to get back to it now and am combining my writing with reading and research to make sure I get the details right because I want this story to be a good story.

Finally, what makes me come back to writing on the worst days? What makes me sit down and write when times are bad? When I write bad times down, they stay on the page. They communicate my thoughts and feelings, and I gain the courage to live another day. I don’t say that lightly. My feelings of insignificance diminish with every word I write down. The stories I write show other people slaying their demons which helps me, and someday others, I hope, to slay their own demons and make this world a much better place.

 

Word of the Month – Discipline

As I’ve been debating on where I want to take my writing life and this blog, in particular, in 2020, I’ve come back to a concept that’s been popular for the last few years. The concept is to pick a “word of the year” that represents what the person hopes to achieve during the year. I do see the wisdom in it though. By thinking of a word for the year, a person can think of how they want their year to go and choose accordingly. But, I decided to take the concept a step further. I have many things I wish to work on this year, and I thought dividing my words into monthly emphases would be a better idea. It also will give me an automatic blog topic for the first blog of each month. So, with all that said, my word for January is discipline, and my post today will explain how I decided on this word and what I want to do with it during this month.

First, the word discipline has two different connotations–one negative and one positive. The definition of the negative connotation of the word is this. Discipline is “the practice of training people to obey rules or a code of behavior, using punishment to correct disobedience.” While I believe in the practice of discipline to train people on how to act in society, this is not quite what I had in mind when I chose discipline as my first word of the month. No, I had a more positive connotation of the word in mind. Nowadays, it’s hard to think of the positive aspects of discipline since we hear so much about the negative ones. But, positive is what I was thinking of, and here is the definition. Discipline is training ourselves to do something in a controlled and habitual way. And this is where I thought I needed to begin as I start working on what I want to accomplish in 2020.

I started writing the list of things I want to do in my planner and was surprised by the number of components it had. Most of them had to do with my writing–finishing my novel, posting regularly in this blog, writing in my journal, and writing more stories. Then, there are the activities that go with my writing such as reading and research and the classes and workshops. It looked intimidating without a plan.

I also wrote down my goals for the other parts of my life such as self-care, spending time with family and friends. and the most important part of my life–my faith practice. I want to let God’s voice lead me in all the aspects of my life; in my writing, in the places I go to serve Him, and in the things I do for Him. It’s my desire to reflect Him and who He is to me with everything I do in this life.

This takes discipline which is why I chose the word. I need to train myself physically, mentally, and spiritually as I write, as I practice my faith, and as I live for Him. Training my brain to focus on the tasks I want to accomplish instead of letting myself be distracted with what the world thinks I need to do. It is hard though. So hard to have discipline in my life though I can see the benefits once I learn and apply it. Being disciplined about working towards my goals will do nothing but help me, and help us all, as we move forward in 2020.

God bless you all today!