My post today will have some beginnings and some endings. Before I type up my post and publish it, I usually hand-write it in my journal. I can be old-fashioned in that way. I like seeing the pages of written words and knowing that I’m the one who wrote them down. One of today’s endings will be completing the last page of this journal. This is a positive change for me. I take a picture of all the journals I’ve completed (over 20 now, I think) and a picture of the next journal I’ll start tomorrow. It helps me to mark how much time has passed and to remember how far I’ve come. Being able to write down how I’m feeling has been a game changer for me. I still might not be able to verbalize my feelings well, but writing them down…writing them down, I can do.
This post will also be published at the end of the month. The ending of a month is usually a positive change for me. I like tearing off the calendar page at the end of the day and seeing all the possibilities of the brand new month coming–the passage of the seasons, so to speak. The ending of this month though will represent something negative for me. No, I don’t mean negative like I don’t want my son to graduate from high school. It just means that I will have less than three weeks of homeschooling left. Twelve years of doing something is a long time, and in a way, it can be negative because I’m not sure of what I’ll be doing next. Let me be honest. Right now, it does hurt because it is an ending, and because I like to know what I’m doing each day. I don’t like to not have the control I usually think I have over my days.
Change can hurt, as it says in today’s devotion. Sometimes, the change is out of our control, and sometimes, it is something we might want, but can still hurt because it represents an ending. I needed to be reminded of what God says about how He works in our lives through today’s Bible verse. From Romans 8:28, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
God works for our good–in the positive and in the negative. I don’t have a problem with positive change as I’m sure most of us don’t. Who wouldn’t want a better job, a promotion, a new place to live, etc., etc. though these positive changes can come with their own kinds of stress? No, it’s the negative changes that can hurt…losing a job, finding out about an illness, or losing a friendship. The author says this about how brave people react to change which confuses me. “Brave people are okay with change because they remember that change is for our good.” (100 Days to Brave, Annie F. Downs) I equate this with pretending that nothing is wrong so I wasn’t sure what to do with it.
But then, she said that God knows. God knows our pain, and He knows our joy. We’re allowed to acknowledge both parts of our lives with Him which is one of my biggest struggles. We don’t have to have it all together to live bravely in His presence. We might not know the good that is planned through the hurt, but we do know He is working for our good through this verse. May we all acknowledge the truth of Romans 8:28 as we go through the joyous times and the hurting times of our lives!
Praying God’s blessings on you all today!